Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Good news?I

I still am obsessed about her. I still think about her. I still love her. But maybe, just maybe, I am finally over her.

I dreamed of her last night. I dreamed that she was coming on the me. The new guy was in the background, yet she still threw herself at me. She said that I was her dada. I rebutted that I wasn't anymore. She left. I didn't wake up crying. Maybe, just maybe, I can finally say that I am over her.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Mmmmm

I would like to think that I'm over her. It doesn't hurt as much these days. But I still miss her so much. 3 years together can't just be erased just like that.

I've had another 2 consecutive nights dreaming about her. At least I don't wake up sobbing.

The first dream was just a simple dream. She came back. She said that she had broken up with the other guy. Haha, as if. But it felt blissful.

The second dream was just her appearing in my life again, and attempting to give me the talk. She just said that she missed me when I was gone and that when another guy turned up in her life wearing a red shirt (his facebook pic is of him wearing a red shirt), she just latched on to that guy. 

I don't really know what to make of it. I want to move on, to try to befriend other girls and maybe find someone else, but somehow, I know my heart just isn't in it. I'll only be doing it for the sake of doing it.

I guess I need a little more time.