Mad

The question is, why, just why am I so mad?

I recently learnt that C is being neglected. AND I AM MAD AT THAT! HOW DARE HE NOT SHOWER HER WITH LOVE AND CONCERN AND ATTENTION ALL THE TIME?! GGGRRRRR!!!!

And he's going overseas for a month! Leaving her alone in Singapore. And it's not a one time thing! It's going to be an on-off thing for the foreseeable future. Gah, I hate his guts for doing something like that to her.

But what right do I have to be mad? What reason do I have to be mad? I still have feelings for C and haven't gotten over her.

Speak of the Devil, I'm writing a post about her and she sends me a Line message. My heart leaps for joy every time I get a message. :D

Anyway, I've said that I wouldn't tempt her or try to break up their relationship, and I shall keep to that promise. I can only get mad internally and not let her know about it. And I'm getting the feeling that she seems to be deliberately avoiding me.

Ah well. We shall have to see what comes of this.

P.S Things are not going well with FY, totally no feeling. I wonder if I'm just to hung up over C, but I highly doubt it. I can talk to the wee hours with C, nonstop, but I can't do that with FY. Going to abandon that one soon, though I feel that she's probably going to abandon me first.

How I feel now. :)(

How now, brown cow?

And so I am here once again. At the crossroads once again.

I am definitely not over her and I think a part of me is still hoping, wishing for something, despite knowing that it would be to no avail.

I know that I don't want to be the third party, I don't want to cause a break up. Of that I am certain. But I really like being around her, so I guess I'll just continue that. I will not put any moves on her, I will not bad mouth her bf, I will not try to break them apart.

But should anything happen to their relationship, I want to be there to be the first person to try to be with her.

And if someone else should pop into my life, I will try to move on.

This I promise myself.