Weird

Today a friend told me he saw her a few days back. He said he saw here at Kallang having supper with a friend. He does not know the story at all.

It was weird that he just said that she was eating with a friend. Cause I mentioned that Kallang was where the new bf stays and he said, almost as an afterthought, that "Yeah, it was probably her bf".

She rarely had supper with me. :(

She rarely has supper near my place with me. :(

Somehow this news affected me more then I wanted it to. I can tell I am not really over her yet. It's sad. Ah well, I need to just move on. She obviously already has.

I miss her.

Breakup Dream

I had this dream just now. Too vivid for my taste and I woke up sobbing.

She was there with her new guy. I met her by coincidence. Seems she has no way to run. I chatted a bit with them and excused myself. She then caught up with me.

She came up to me and hugged me. She placed her head on my chest like she does. It feels so comfortable.

I asked her,"So?"

"I just stopped loving you and wanted to get away."

"Why couldn't you just have told me?!", I screamed.

"You try it, it's not so easy"

"Fine... I wish you all the best then"

We continued walking. I looked at her. So resplendent, so pretty, so perfect. My heart aches for her. It pines for her. I blurted out, "Do I still have a chance in the future?"

She looked into my eyes and said simply, "No. You've already had your second chance"

I wake up crying.

Part of me is starting to accept my fate.

Closure

I need closure desperately. I need it bad. But I'll never get it until I've had that talk with her.