Went to her place yesterday while she was out to see Bin Bin. Took him for a walk and played with him a little after that. Scratched his tummy. That was the first time I felt happy these couple of days.
I was wondering if I would break down going to her place. Apparently not. It would be very different if she were there, but since she was not, it wasn't so bad. I hope I can maintain that distinction. It seems that she really doesn't care anymore. I mean I know that, I just have to start to accept that. There will be no more next time. Relief? Sadness?
I think I really miss Bin Bin a lot. He had been a part of my life for almost a year. He was there with me while she was not. He does not judge. He licked my tears and tried to comfort me. I will make it a point to visit him often. He does not deserve this.
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